On my holidays:
As of now, I'm down to my last 4 days of holiday. A holiday, my holiday, that I can call a true, clean break from whatever frenetic mess that preceded it. Let's put this into perspective: never in my life I'll get another 8 months' worth of nothingness, except when I start receiving CPF payouts. It is pure remorse I did not do anything extraordinary or anything that I'm particularly proud of.
On studying (again) and the future:
I'm one of those students that looks forward to the new school term because it provides sorta like a clean slate where I can carve out a name for myself through hardwork and stellar results and
Whatever. You know me. But I'm having this mid-mid-life crisis too; What do I want in life? How can a CAP of 5.0 help me achieve what I want in life?
Oh hold on, I am acting on the assumption that the hardworking grubber still sees to the day.
What if I get a CAP f 0.5 instead?
The end goal in my time in secondary school and junior college was as clear - there was only one, study now, get as many A's, bonus if it's all A's, think later. Setting the ending goal now is completely futile without a clear vision in mind. And what ending goal? End of what?
Small steps. Get as many A's, but think now.
On new environment:
It's great to step into a new institution that offers a new environment and experience - the only perk to the sad realisation that once again, you are subjected to the unforgivable cycle of lectures, tutorials and the merciless/merciful bellcurve demon/deity. Participating in a separate academic program boasting of its own tight-knit community (oh, wonder why people label us exclusive and elitist) forces me to actually socialise lest I relapse into my chao mugger persona I have veneered for the past number of years. I hope I'll adapt well and form new relationships.
On the past:
It doesn't matter!
